Peace.

I am beat!

Am making a birthday card for a princess and my back is aching AND my stomach just grumbled. Tell me it's not hunger because there's no food anywhere in the house. :(

It's 2.18 a.m and almost everyone's asleep.

I made a mess out of my room because of the things I had to cut and paste on the birthday card... I just gave my dog one of my t-shirts so that she wouldn't feel cold in the freezin' December. I... miss that Puki. I hope I am happy.

I don't know what this post is about... Hahaha I'm going crazy hahahaha 'cos I'm damn tired but I can't sleep.

Oh I miss my grandma... more than anything else in the world. It's so weird to know that she's not around anymore... just... a month ago. It's the 30th day and I am still emotionally struggling with her death. It's not as bad as the first few days but I am still in disbelief that she's gone.

I cannot, cannot, cannot forget the day she was on her hospital bed. Her body so still, so cold and she wasn't moving, wasn't at all... it was 5.48 in the morning. Her face... vividly stays in my mind. The greatest woman left. What am I left with now?

She left a golden necklace for me and I know she loves me very much. I hate how young I was back then... too young to know anything. Too young to know that grandma's sick and that I had to go to her place and visit her. Too young to learn that if she's gone she'll never be back.

I think I live with regrets now but I'll make it up for her. I'll love her forever and I'll never forget someone so dear to me... never...

I miss you Nainai.

:(