Happy Chinese New Year!

Nbcb, it's 4.50 a.m and I am still wide awake! I spent my Lunar New Year wishing my grandma was right by my side eating reunion dinner with me and first few hours of official Chinese New Year with J and friends for a movie, 'Love Matters'. Go watch it 'cos it's fucking funny!

Hao came to my place because I am his special-and-very-nice hairstylist...


I AM SO FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF!!! His tail area is kinda fucked but I'll fix that when I see him again! Gonna try inner-cut, which he has been wanting to achieve. But I think I did awesome (considering I never dared to touch/cut/shave/dye anyone's hair before) so shut up ah you all I tell you all ah.

HANDSOMEEE BOY!!!

Sorry that I made you bald on a small batch. HAHAHAHA. HAIR WILL GROW!!!

Happy Chineseeee New Year to all aliens out there who are celebrating! Don't think about how fat bak gua would make you, lighten up and enjoy these special days with your family. If you are close to your grandmama, keep her close to you always because you'll never know when you're gonna lose the chance to.

And don't fret about some of your ang baos with little $$$ because it's the thoughts that count. No matter how much you get, spend them wisely and share it!

P.S: If you need a hairstylist... you know who to call. HAHAHA.

Nam Dai huat ah!

I was watching Red Cliff with C and his family, was trying fucking hard not to sleep. Not that it was a boring show, I was bloody tired I could sleep on a stranger's penis. But, of course, I did not close my eyes. How can a woman close her eyes when...

THIS MAN IS ACTING?!

Kua kua kua... although he looks like that in the movie...

BUT HE IS fuckfuckfuckfuckingcbnbknn hot! HAHAHA. I kept whispering to C that "OMG... HE'S DAMN HANDSOME OK" and "Wah lan eh! Jing Chen Wu is damn hot!". C must have felt like shit but everyone would feel like shit standing beside Takeshi Kaneshiro. His looks PWNSZ every single man out there trying to look sexy with jeans + slippers + jibai cardigan + a freaking handbag!!!

WHY?! WHY SINGAPORE NO HAB DIZ KIND OFFFF MANNN?!

Okokokokay, Tony Leung also buay pai (a.k.a, not bad).

"O rly?"

HAHA, he must have cried behind the scenes because Takeshi is just a freaking ex-farmer in the movie (and a pro warlord) and he is soooo hot!!! HAHAHAHA. Ok enough.

After the movie...

Estelle: "Baby? Can I orh orh with you tonight?"
Clifton: "I was just thinking about that! It's late after movie. Come my place and sleep!"
Estelle: "Ok!"

HEHEHEHEHAHHAHAHEHEHAHHIKAHIAKHIAK. I know, I'm such a baby sometimes. But he treats me like a baby hheheheohohohohohohehehee.


Next morning, I was invited by morning breeze and nostalgia... What a feeling. What a fucking feeling after not stepping into Nam Dai for 7 months.

Awesome.

I'll be back soon! ;)

Dangling... WHAT?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH...

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I'M SO SORRY! I CAN'T HELP IT... HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Grandma's 100th day.

Cousin Seany and I :)

At the end of the night...

It's been 100 days... it's... weird to be back at Toa Payoh, having feast, chatting over dinner, playing card games and of course, the legendary rounds of Mahjong. Without grandma. We prayed for her, hoping that she has friends and family up there, hoping that she's doing super good up there, hoping that one day she'll come back and talk to us again.

A hugeeee thank you to my mummy who prepared all the good food. It was so good that everything was swiped off soooo quickly. Grandma's house is very small thus the place was fucking congested. But you know, I love the feeling. The coziness, the warmth and the people (some).

Some irritating idiots had to turn up late for the praying session. Some stupid idiots (nope, not Ness... it's... hehe) had no time to come on a damn fine Sunday. If I could, I would use a sniper and shoot their nipples.

Dad was a funny drunk but he could still drive if you minus away the... occasional slips off the lane, constant hi-5-ing with my mum for nothing (-_-) and driving fast... and then... s...l...o...w randomly.

"EHHHHK! I want my beer."

Just kidding :)

TAGGED.

1. I eat a lot, more than what you think.

2. I despise slow walkers, I don't care if I am mean. MUAHAHA.

3. I hate boys who don on jeans with slippers. GET A LIFE?!

4. I am fucking impatient. Like I will totally slap you if you take about more than 20 seconds to get out of your seat and then alight from the bus.

5. I secretly oogle on hot bungs. They could be hot girls.

6. I always find myself dreaming to walk around a country with just a bagpack and camera.

7. I don't understand why people OMG, WTH at girls who speak profanities. Fuck you.

8. I once ate Pastamania 3 days straight. I can do better.

9. I have 11 pairs of sneakers and 1590 pairs of shoes.

10. I love french kissing. LOL.

11. I love cars. I often fantasize about... having them. (BMW BMW BMW GTR GTR GTR)

12. Before I changed to Flock browser, my I.E browser had about 600+++ Youtube favourited files. I used to skip sleeping for Youtube.com. Amen.

13. I want a nose job. 'Cos I don't have a freaking nose bridge.

14. I was once obsessed with my boyfriend. I was crazy.

15. I love cycling. I'll go anywhere you want me to.

16. I like guys with tattoos. Esp. full sleeve with crazy tribal designs.

17. I am always, unknowingly, attracted to guys who are 180 cm and above.

18. But that doesn't mean I am unfaithful. I love C very, very much.

19. I don't mind working, earning and cooking for C. I don't mind if I am the one supporting the family, I don't mind if we do not have to get married, I don't mind if we have to live in a small house. Because I love him. But I believe we won't be in such state. I am just telling you that I can do whatever it takes and stickwithim.

20. Today, I wore my panty inside out. I told my bestmalefriend about it.

Jotebook.

OMG I just shat (past tense of: shit) the crap out of my ass and I am feeling a tad bit giddy!!! LOL I know it's a little LOL but really! The moment I stood up after ass-cleaning, my head was spinning a little. It was a damn good shitting man seriously, I cleared EVERYTHING! HEHEHE.

Sex Is Zero 1
Sex Is Zero 2
Meet Dave
Bring It On - In It To Win
I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry
Wedding Crashers
Camp Rock
Euro Trip
Norbit
College
100 Girls
27 Dresses
Over Her Dead Body
50 First Dates
Who Slept With Her (some korean college movie...)
Love Guru

Okokay, so now I left with... Twilight (no, I hate Edward Cullen I hate him. I don't get it, why are all the girls having orgasm over him man?! Seriously, pick Michael Copon to orgasm over. Please. I hate Robert whatever Son name he has.), Wanted, I Am Legend, P.S I Love You (I have NOT watch this yet... since so fucking long ago but I think I have the courage to watch now. Winks.) and A lot Like Love.

WOOOOOO.

Wait, I think I still have SAW movies 1 to 5...

I am not watching it.

I am not.

Please don't, Estelle. You will die.

Ok I won't.

I'M GOING TO WATCH A LOT LIKE LOVE NOWWWWZA.

I wanna thank my friends.

Hi! I know I am such a loser, leaving my blog alone for... sleep. Yes, I slept at 20:00 and woke up at 07:00 in the morning! HAHAHA. I would love to spend some quiet time thinking about my friends and appreciate them here in my blog but I can't think str8 now so I will do it at home.

I was texting my silly C just now...

E: "baby ! next time if i'm free, i buy lunch for you at work can anot ! suddenly i feel like being a cute and sweet wife !!! LOL LOL LOL !" (Err yes, this is my sms style.)

C: "hahaha ! i thought of asking you to do that before ! wahahahaha !"

E: "HAHAHA OKOK ! i go plan what food to buy ! LOL you'll become fatter ! WOO I LOVE YOU TEDDY BEAR !"

C: "HAHAHAHAHA ! BUT I WANT TO SLIM DOWN ! don't like that lah ! i love you sweetheart ! you're the sweetest !" (Err yes, we have similar sms style...)

I've been thinking about buying him lunch everyday when my holidays are here. Hehe, he's gonna get so fat because I am buying his lunch at... MAXWELL HAWKER CENTRE! Fucking heaven there ok, the food is AMAZING.

Later guys!

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OMG.

C: "hahahaha ! my mother wants to see you ! she misses you !"

E: "REALLY MEH !!! BABY DON'T SCARE ME I FEEL THAT I'M GOING TO PEE IN MY PANTS LEH !"

LOL.

I could be better.

An escapade after Chinese New Year! I cannot wait. Nope, I am not going overseas of course... maybe Bintan during March. But after CNY, I'll be staying over at C's. MUAHAHAHA! Which means I am going to meet his mother again. I am freaking out a little bit but the thought of spending nights (he works in the day) with C excitezzzz me!

Anyways I met him on Monday...

Estelle: "So when's our turn? To get married?"
Clifton: "OHH! This year, okay? We can go R.O.M."
Estelle: "Seriously? HAHAHAHA ok!"
Clifton: "You're gonna get married to me, right?"
Clifton: "RIGHT?!"
Estelle: "HAHAHA of course baby, who else!"

I love talking. I love exchanging conversations with the man I love. He's such a joy to talk to...


I wanna live in a house like that with him... but of course it's not really gonna happen. Because he likes his stuff modern... he likes Zen and contemporary image. But for me, I love washed woods, country interior, brick walls, fire place (although we don't need 1, at all), comfy sofas... A house where I can put a lot a lot a lot of photo frames, candles...

Ok I'll be right back... I am a little stoned.

Maybe I needed that.

I feel sad... I feel really down. I wanna move out of my house. I wanna stay at baby's house, for a time being... I need him very much now. Fuck RP. Now I don't know what I wanna do with my entire fucking education shit. I wanna move out... I wanna move out... I wanna find myself with my parents and family. I want to know what I clearly want... I am crushed. I don't know... I am crushed.

All the single ladies... the boys did their thang.

Amazing boys... (Second video, that's Justin Timberlake at the extreme left... ROFL.)

Soccer match.

Estelle: "Everytime I see 'West Ham. U., I feel hungry."
Hao: "WHY?!"
Estelle: "'Cos it's like HAM? You know, HAM. I feel hungry. Reminds me of Western Bacon Hamburger in Carl's Junior... HAM. Hungry. Ham..."

I remember.

1.
There are a lot of things I can't do or say in a very much matured relationship (with C, of course). An attention seeker is one who seeks attention and to him and many others; it is a some sorta... major annoyance. As a woman in a matured relationship, I cannot really seek my wanted attention because the man would say, "C'mon, don't you know me?! Haven't you understand already?! HAVEN'T YOU UNDERSTAND HOW OU.." OK, CUT. Stop. You know I'm doing really good with C. It's just one of those nights where I think about how amusingly... stable our relationship is. I, constantly, do not want to screw things up. So I am thinking about how I should suck in my wants for attention. I'm not young anymore, I don't whine - and I don't want to.

2.

Not-so-secret.

I don't wish for this but it's the truth. I face the truth everyday and I do not deny how fucked up it is. Yes, above is my current handwriting (I change them, it's my mood - get it?) and I feel... as solemn as ever about my family. I hope the shame fades away because I really do love my family.

3.
I don't like blogging about my purchases because I think the point of telling people your purchases is pointless. Say, you bought a skirt. Yeah. That's it. You bought a skirt. Point of the story? It's lovely and you bought a skirt. Well done.

4.
I like true bloggers. Bloggers who blog about how they feel about this and that. Not bloggers who blog about where they go, Orchard, Cineleisure, Heeren then we went to Chinatown for dimsum. After that met up with A and B, bumped into C and D and hung out with E. E says that bitch is so ugly but F still fucked her anyway like OMG. Oh yes ME SO HAPPY TO SEE G and bumped into H, I, J, K, L... That's all, BB, xoxo. Maybe if you touch your heart about a lot of issues, your blog would be much more interesting.

5.
I cannot stand bimbo blogs. But contradictingly, I read them to get myself pissed. But I don't do tagboard wars, so no worries.

6.
I'm going out with C soon. Which means I get to see him after so long. The anticipation - you know how it feels? It feels fucking awesome.

Goodnight.

She saw me...

Brought my lil baby Piggy out for a walk because I was outside my house and she was staring me through the door like a poor little bored doggy. The look in her eyes was... woah. So I decided to make her happy!

Overweight bitch.

And yes... it was really windy.

His new blog.

Please visit the homo's bestfriend's blog - yyihaoo.blogspot.com. I just decorated it for him and he'd better fucking blog. Anyhoos, link him babies!

Great losses in life.

http://www.latimes.com/news/obituaries

I was reading through the history of Bettie Page and came to know the cause of her death. It was heart attack on 2nd of December and she was on life support ever since then. She passed away recently. I am not sure when was the exact date of her death but it's sad... because she was 85. And it makes me think about my grandma living 4 years longer than her. Grandma. She was strong, a female warrior and she is still amazing to me. 89. Yes, 89... and then I am now, feeling sad over the loss of my grandma (again). I know, what a cycle.

Bettie at the brim of her career.

Bettie Page was a hot pinup legend, a photograph of her taken by an amateur camera was enough to make guys cum in their pants. I wonder if my grandma was hot when she was younger. Makes you think, no? I don't have photos of her when she was younger. I wish I had.

Wah lau, why am I thinking about this at 3.00 am in the morning?


I miss you, grandmother.

Adam is my Sandler.

I finished 'I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry' and it's aweeeeeesome! Adam Sandler will always be my sexual, physical and mind-fucking fantasy.


Seriously if he's gay, I'd cut my breasts off and attach a dick to my ***** so then maybe, he'd fall for me. I LOVE ADAM SANDLER!!! HAHA.

Wait a minute... there are new movies!

• Bride Wars (I wanna catch this!)
  
• Marley & Me (This too!)
  
• Seven Pounds (Maybe one day if I feel a little too serious about life I'd watch this. I usually don't pick movies like this but... I don't know. I feel that I gotta watch it, you know?)
  
• Bedtime Stories (OMG ADAM SANDLER! I watched it already!)
• Yes Man (Watched! AWESOME MOVIE.)

I hope C has the time for me to go on a date with me for a movie. :(

Conversations.

I was shitting in the toilet one fine day and C called.

C: "Hello, baby!"
E: "Oh hello! Erm I'm shitting in the toilet..."
C: "Oh!"
E: "Yeah... haha."
C: "I love you baby."
E: "Love you too."

:)

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Wendy: "Hey, you know Michael Kors?"
Estelle: "Is he like a designer or something?"
Wendy: "Yeah! He was on my flight omg I took a picture with him."

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Mum: "EH CAN YOU STOP WEARING BRA?!"
Estelle: "HUH?! ME? STOP WEARING BRA?"
Mum: "Need to use hands and wash leh!"
Estelle: "How can I not wear a damn bra?!"

Bring it on.

I just started a movie, 'Bring It On - In It To Win' and I figured that all the damn cheerleaders in the world are so happy-looking and... yeah, cheery. It's a pretty tough hobby, no? Sometimes you have to pretend to be happy and cheer when you know the last night your heart just got broken. Or... maybe something bad happens but when the performance starts you have to smile. Smile when you are sad. And cheer when you are about to cry.

Cheerleaders are so pretentious.

In a good way.

C.

I hate C sometimes, he's such a workaholic to an extend of not taking offs in one week or two. And this week he's just occupied with work and I, his beloved wifey, has to wait for his next off - which is NEXT WEEK.

I'M GOING TO KILL SOMEONE.

It is ALWAYS the case! The first time we got back together (again), we met after like... 5 days later. And and and the VERY VERY VERY first time, took months later for us to see each other! Gosh I feel like we are already married, we know so much about each other! Frankly, I think we could just get married. I know him for so long... say, 4 years?

Amazing.

I really feel like giving a punch in his face because I really, really, really want to see him and give him a big squishy cuddle because he's just like a teddy bear.

I know C mysteriously pops up of nowhere in my blog so... I'm just going to briefly say a thing or two or more about him.

He has this... really awful temper, which, he tries to control most of the time when I irritate him. But when I go overboard, his eyes burn with flames but I always cry after looking into his eyes, so the flames turn into ashes and he hugs me. HAHAHAHAHAHA. The powerlization of girls crying, don't pray pray!

He loves food, just as much as I do. But he likes taking eating into a whole new level, he eats... say, almost everything. Err, even oysters, which I really abhor. And coriander stupid flower or leaves because they taste so bad. He eats everything. Everything.

He thinks a lot, just like me. Thinks too much for his own damn good, or think about problems, issues in his life, thinks about me and my retarded problems I have with him, thinks about ways to solve a particular question or whatever problems. And I KNOW it when he's thinking seriously. Still, his thoughts get disrupted after hearing my stupid voice. But like, 10 seconds later, he starts thinking again.

He works and he earns for himself and his family. I don't like to take his money because I think I can handle it with my own allowance. It's good to give men their financial space. I like to share because I feel that it'll make us closer together, like we have no worries about financial issues because you know, we share. I don't care how much you have, you don't care how much I have. When you don't have enough, I'll pass you some $$$ and when I don't have enough, you'll pass me. Right, baby?

We travel. No wait, I think I travel more than he does. He lives in Jurong West and I, live in... Bishan. HAHA.

Okay, this is fucking wordy. Byebye!

Oh wait, his name is Clifton btw! LOL.

In my head, in your head.

Resolutions; what are they? They are just some goals I'd never reach. Goals that far exceed my abilities but I am going to just note down what I have in mind. Some resolutions...

• To be nicer to my parents. Yes, forget the past, will you, Estelle?
• Watch my language. Profanities play a big role in my life and since it's bad, I need to cut down. Even if it's by 10%, I'd be glad enough.
  
• Be less cynical. I can't help it, I'm true to myself and how I feel about a lot of things. But I'll try, it's kinda bad.
• To make C happy - always, everyday and forever.
• Manage my time, juggle it well between family, friends and C.
• Save money, save it in my little piggybank. Just in case, C needs medical fees for broken arms and legs. Kidding. Save more money for emergency cases like... seeing a pair of fuckin' nice Onitsuka shoes, take the money and buy it. Kidding, again. I mean, have a little financial backup, no? :)
• Bring Piggy out for more walks.
• To excel in RP (this is a lie, a big fat lie).

The end.

Just another post.

1.
When I was younger, in the past, I used to think that forgetting an anniversary is like forgetting your wedding ring on the wedding day. I'd get so mad with C but I wouldn't tell him because he'd feel so lousy.

C: "OH damn, both of us forgot! Anniversary was on the 4th! DAMN!"

HAHA. I didn't forget! I just thought that maybe we don't need to celebrate or even wish each other, you know? 'cos we are a pair of old man and wife! Plus I'd be mad if you forget, so why should I bother?

C: "I love you lah, bunbun!"

(Err yes he likes to call me bunbun...)

But now, I don't think it matters anymore... :)

2.
How easy for all you rich fuckers to say what you wanna do, where you wanna study. Right, yall wanna go Australia or America or China to study... I know. I just don't like it when people brag about how they plan to go some atas countries to study. I know you can handle the fees, I know you can have all the money in the world to live there. But seriously, don't brag. I love studying in Singapore.

3.
I don't like hassle and fuss. Which is the reason why I rarely speak to girls because they are so whiny. It scares me to live up to a certain standards that girls have. I see myself as a boy so it's kinda hard for me to relate to girls. I get very stressed on how to please girls especially when they are my bestfriends. Actually I only have 2, so thank Lord.

4.
I love 'The Man Who Can't Be Moved'.

5.
Oh great, today's Science test and I, smartly, downloaded Cognitive module's 6th presentations for reference. Bravo!

Sentosa & Serangoon.

3rd of January:

SENTOSA!!!

What do you say?! FUCKEN FUN, of course because I have awesome friends! And a camera, which really just everything even more fun. We climbed trees, did Bollywood shoots, crossed the bridge, stood on rocks, went to the sea with sports bra huge tummies, check out hot people and... just relaxing in the sea. Like there were no worries (we have a lot, but you know how Sentosa can make you feel so much better, no?).

This is J and I!

Lion, J, Estelle and Hao.

He broke his nail, fucken ouch.

We chased this Cock for a good 5 minutes or so.

Oleh beach soccer!

On the rocks.

Koala bear!

Do you actually pronounce Koala as "Co-la" or "Ku-wah-la"?! Beats me 'cos I always think of it as "Ku-wah-la" but what comes out of my mouth is "Co-la". Ok, never mind about me.

Dating: Lionel and Ben.

I know... so sweet. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHALOL.

He was a fucken scared Koala bear. PWNED.

Koala with flower on the head!

Trying to get up...

We did it. Like, hooray.

The boys!

Bollywood lady and a retarded Bollywood male model wannabe.

"Oh, where is our curry?"

People Like Us Hangout Cafe @ Serangoon (night).

Err so we played with this Jenga (?) thing, it is fucken similar to Uno Stacko. Forfeit for loser, who made the entire structure fall. HAHA, first was me. It was so embarrassing. They picked a guy for me to say 'Hi' to. But it was fun, considering they were really a nice bunch of friendly people!

LOL.

Lionel's forfeit - HE'S LUCKY.

HAHAHAHAHA. Hao's forfeit!

Videos:


Damn, I sound like a kid.


Hao's forfeit.


WAH cb fucking tired. Update tomorrow!