Recap, renew.

I could kill a person to prove to you how perfect I want my 2009 to be. 2008 was a fail... major tragic. Prolly the worst year ever. It was so bad I think the best month I had was January, when I got to spend my last Chinese New Year with my grandma. Other than that, I don't know if there's anything worst than...

1918 - 2008, I miss you grandma.

1. Being broke on Febuary, I left with $0. Yes, no kiddin'.
2. Still super financially tight (March).
3. Startin' to feel distant from C during April.
4. Not the best b'day - May.
5. Broke off with C on 21st June, had never been okay since then.
6. July was hell without C, I cried everyday.
7. Supposed to be celebrating our 2 years' anniversary on Aug but... you know.
8. 2nd September was the date grandma was admitted to the hospital, I still feel very sad. 18th September was Aisha's birthday but I couldn't give her the best. I am fucked up.
9. October was another bullshit month. I love grandma, so very much.
10. I nearly killed myself, fucken sad. Prolly the saddest day of my life. She left us on 8th of Nov.
11. Martell and I got drunk. 23rd of October, unforgettable.


And not to forget some things I found out about my parents, which, apparently made 2008 a more fucked up one. And my sister's relationships with her partners, really really bad. I want things to be better in '09, I want it to be holyshit good.

Aisha, Hao, Deb, Ah J, Saleha, Wei Xiang, Kim, Fathanah, Jem, Candy, Wendy, Lion, Nessa and Sean. All my homies I love yall so much :b I would've died in 2008 without all the superhuman support. Thanks so fucken much!

And C, thank you for making 31st December the most most most awesome one. We are hittin' another year since 2006. We are back again and I am going to kiss your lil ass when I see you, (L). Thank you for letting me know that I've not given up on you, thank you for indirectly sorting out my feelings... thank you Cbaby. Mwah.

And Eileen, we'll make 2009 a zillion times better than the motherfucking stupid retarded shitass '08.

Hip hip hooray!









Goodnight and sleep well, everyone!