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Fucking shitass jibai exhausted.

Ever since the jibai school ended I've been sleeping at averagely 5.30 a.m in the morning. CNY was worst because I remember myself sleeping at 7 in the morning after Mahjong and the rest of the days' sleeping times were 5, 6 or 7 a.m. I will not be surprised if I look like a motherfucking panda next week but I do know that if I don't stop this fucking sleeping disorder I'll literally die. Be it my mood, or my fucking face. I h8 panda eyes. I h8 horrible skin.

Now please excuse me while I go lie on my bed. I have not been sleeping on it for about a week or so. Bah.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Nbcb, it's 4.50 a.m and I am still wide awake! I spent my Lunar New Year wishing my grandma was right by my side eating reunion dinner with me and first few hours of official Chinese New Year with J and friends for a movie, 'Love Matters'. Go watch it 'cos it's fucking funny!

Hao came to my place because I am his special-and-very-nice hairstylist...


I AM SO FUCKING PROUD OF MYSELF!!! His tail area is kinda fucked but I'll fix that when I see him again! Gonna try inner-cut, which he has been wanting to achieve. But I think I did awesome (considering I never dared to touch/cut/shave/dye anyone's hair before) so shut up ah you all I tell you all ah.

HANDSOMEEE BOY!!!

Sorry that I made you bald on a small batch. HAHAHAHA. HAIR WILL GROW!!!

Happy Chineseeee New Year to all aliens out there who are celebrating! Don't think about how fat bak gua would make you, lighten up and enjoy these special days with your family. If you are close to your grandmama, keep her close to you always because you'll never know when you're gonna lose the chance to.

And don't fret about some of your ang baos with little $$$ because it's the thoughts that count. No matter how much you get, spend them wisely and share it!

P.S: If you need a hairstylist... you know who to call. HAHAHA.

Nam Dai huat ah!

I was watching Red Cliff with C and his family, was trying fucking hard not to sleep. Not that it was a boring show, I was bloody tired I could sleep on a stranger's penis. But, of course, I did not close my eyes. How can a woman close her eyes when...

THIS MAN IS ACTING?!

Kua kua kua... although he looks like that in the movie...

BUT HE IS fuckfuckfuckfuckingcbnbknn hot! HAHAHA. I kept whispering to C that "OMG... HE'S DAMN HANDSOME OK" and "Wah lan eh! Jing Chen Wu is damn hot!". C must have felt like shit but everyone would feel like shit standing beside Takeshi Kaneshiro. His looks PWNSZ every single man out there trying to look sexy with jeans + slippers + jibai cardigan + a freaking handbag!!!

WHY?! WHY SINGAPORE NO HAB DIZ KIND OFFFF MANNN?!

Okokokokay, Tony Leung also buay pai (a.k.a, not bad).

"O rly?"

HAHA, he must have cried behind the scenes because Takeshi is just a freaking ex-farmer in the movie (and a pro warlord) and he is soooo hot!!! HAHAHAHA. Ok enough.

After the movie...

Estelle: "Baby? Can I orh orh with you tonight?"
Clifton: "I was just thinking about that! It's late after movie. Come my place and sleep!"
Estelle: "Ok!"

HEHEHEHEHAHHAHAHEHEHAHHIKAHIAKHIAK. I know, I'm such a baby sometimes. But he treats me like a baby hheheheohohohohohohehehee.


Next morning, I was invited by morning breeze and nostalgia... What a feeling. What a fucking feeling after not stepping into Nam Dai for 7 months.

Awesome.

I'll be back soon! ;)

Dangling... WHAT?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH...

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I'M SO SORRY! I CAN'T HELP IT... HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Grandma's 100th day.

Cousin Seany and I :)

At the end of the night...

It's been 100 days... it's... weird to be back at Toa Payoh, having feast, chatting over dinner, playing card games and of course, the legendary rounds of Mahjong. Without grandma. We prayed for her, hoping that she has friends and family up there, hoping that she's doing super good up there, hoping that one day she'll come back and talk to us again.

A hugeeee thank you to my mummy who prepared all the good food. It was so good that everything was swiped off soooo quickly. Grandma's house is very small thus the place was fucking congested. But you know, I love the feeling. The coziness, the warmth and the people (some).

Some irritating idiots had to turn up late for the praying session. Some stupid idiots (nope, not Ness... it's... hehe) had no time to come on a damn fine Sunday. If I could, I would use a sniper and shoot their nipples.

Dad was a funny drunk but he could still drive if you minus away the... occasional slips off the lane, constant hi-5-ing with my mum for nothing (-_-) and driving fast... and then... s...l...o...w randomly.

"EHHHHK! I want my beer."

Just kidding :)

TAGGED.

1. I eat a lot, more than what you think.

2. I despise slow walkers, I don't care if I am mean. MUAHAHA.

3. I hate boys who don on jeans with slippers. GET A LIFE?!

4. I am fucking impatient. Like I will totally slap you if you take about more than 20 seconds to get out of your seat and then alight from the bus.

5. I secretly oogle on hot bungs. They could be hot girls.

6. I always find myself dreaming to walk around a country with just a bagpack and camera.

7. I don't understand why people OMG, WTH at girls who speak profanities. Fuck you.

8. I once ate Pastamania 3 days straight. I can do better.

9. I have 11 pairs of sneakers and 1590 pairs of shoes.

10. I love french kissing. LOL.

11. I love cars. I often fantasize about... having them. (BMW BMW BMW GTR GTR GTR)

12. Before I changed to Flock browser, my I.E browser had about 600+++ Youtube favourited files. I used to skip sleeping for Youtube.com. Amen.

13. I want a nose job. 'Cos I don't have a freaking nose bridge.

14. I was once obsessed with my boyfriend. I was crazy.

15. I love cycling. I'll go anywhere you want me to.

16. I like guys with tattoos. Esp. full sleeve with crazy tribal designs.

17. I am always, unknowingly, attracted to guys who are 180 cm and above.

18. But that doesn't mean I am unfaithful. I love C very, very much.

19. I don't mind working, earning and cooking for C. I don't mind if I am the one supporting the family, I don't mind if we do not have to get married, I don't mind if we have to live in a small house. Because I love him. But I believe we won't be in such state. I am just telling you that I can do whatever it takes and stickwithim.

20. Today, I wore my panty inside out. I told my bestmalefriend about it.

Jotebook.

OMG I just shat (past tense of: shit) the crap out of my ass and I am feeling a tad bit giddy!!! LOL I know it's a little LOL but really! The moment I stood up after ass-cleaning, my head was spinning a little. It was a damn good shitting man seriously, I cleared EVERYTHING! HEHEHE.

Sex Is Zero 1
Sex Is Zero 2
Meet Dave
Bring It On - In It To Win
I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry
Wedding Crashers
Camp Rock
Euro Trip
Norbit
College
100 Girls
27 Dresses
Over Her Dead Body
50 First Dates
Who Slept With Her (some korean college movie...)
Love Guru

Okokay, so now I left with... Twilight (no, I hate Edward Cullen I hate him. I don't get it, why are all the girls having orgasm over him man?! Seriously, pick Michael Copon to orgasm over. Please. I hate Robert whatever Son name he has.), Wanted, I Am Legend, P.S I Love You (I have NOT watch this yet... since so fucking long ago but I think I have the courage to watch now. Winks.) and A lot Like Love.

WOOOOOO.

Wait, I think I still have SAW movies 1 to 5...

I am not watching it.

I am not.

Please don't, Estelle. You will die.

Ok I won't.

I'M GOING TO WATCH A LOT LIKE LOVE NOWWWWZA.

I wanna thank my friends.

Hi! I know I am such a loser, leaving my blog alone for... sleep. Yes, I slept at 20:00 and woke up at 07:00 in the morning! HAHAHA. I would love to spend some quiet time thinking about my friends and appreciate them here in my blog but I can't think str8 now so I will do it at home.

I was texting my silly C just now...

E: "baby ! next time if i'm free, i buy lunch for you at work can anot ! suddenly i feel like being a cute and sweet wife !!! LOL LOL LOL !" (Err yes, this is my sms style.)

C: "hahaha ! i thought of asking you to do that before ! wahahahaha !"

E: "HAHAHA OKOK ! i go plan what food to buy ! LOL you'll become fatter ! WOO I LOVE YOU TEDDY BEAR !"

C: "HAHAHAHAHA ! BUT I WANT TO SLIM DOWN ! don't like that lah ! i love you sweetheart ! you're the sweetest !" (Err yes, we have similar sms style...)

I've been thinking about buying him lunch everyday when my holidays are here. Hehe, he's gonna get so fat because I am buying his lunch at... MAXWELL HAWKER CENTRE! Fucking heaven there ok, the food is AMAZING.

Later guys!

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OMG.

C: "hahahaha ! my mother wants to see you ! she misses you !"

E: "REALLY MEH !!! BABY DON'T SCARE ME I FEEL THAT I'M GOING TO PEE IN MY PANTS LEH !"

LOL.

I could be better.

An escapade after Chinese New Year! I cannot wait. Nope, I am not going overseas of course... maybe Bintan during March. But after CNY, I'll be staying over at C's. MUAHAHAHA! Which means I am going to meet his mother again. I am freaking out a little bit but the thought of spending nights (he works in the day) with C excitezzzz me!

Anyways I met him on Monday...

Estelle: "So when's our turn? To get married?"
Clifton: "OHH! This year, okay? We can go R.O.M."
Estelle: "Seriously? HAHAHAHA ok!"
Clifton: "You're gonna get married to me, right?"
Clifton: "RIGHT?!"
Estelle: "HAHAHA of course baby, who else!"

I love talking. I love exchanging conversations with the man I love. He's such a joy to talk to...


I wanna live in a house like that with him... but of course it's not really gonna happen. Because he likes his stuff modern... he likes Zen and contemporary image. But for me, I love washed woods, country interior, brick walls, fire place (although we don't need 1, at all), comfy sofas... A house where I can put a lot a lot a lot of photo frames, candles...

Ok I'll be right back... I am a little stoned.

Maybe I needed that.

I feel sad... I feel really down. I wanna move out of my house. I wanna stay at baby's house, for a time being... I need him very much now. Fuck RP. Now I don't know what I wanna do with my entire fucking education shit. I wanna move out... I wanna move out... I wanna find myself with my parents and family. I want to know what I clearly want... I am crushed. I don't know... I am crushed.

All the single ladies... the boys did their thang.

Amazing boys... (Second video, that's Justin Timberlake at the extreme left... ROFL.)

Soccer match.

Estelle: "Everytime I see 'West Ham. U., I feel hungry."
Hao: "WHY?!"
Estelle: "'Cos it's like HAM? You know, HAM. I feel hungry. Reminds me of Western Bacon Hamburger in Carl's Junior... HAM. Hungry. Ham..."

I remember.

1.
There are a lot of things I can't do or say in a very much matured relationship (with C, of course). An attention seeker is one who seeks attention and to him and many others; it is a some sorta... major annoyance. As a woman in a matured relationship, I cannot really seek my wanted attention because the man would say, "C'mon, don't you know me?! Haven't you understand already?! HAVEN'T YOU UNDERSTAND HOW OU.." OK, CUT. Stop. You know I'm doing really good with C. It's just one of those nights where I think about how amusingly... stable our relationship is. I, constantly, do not want to screw things up. So I am thinking about how I should suck in my wants for attention. I'm not young anymore, I don't whine - and I don't want to.

2.

Not-so-secret.

I don't wish for this but it's the truth. I face the truth everyday and I do not deny how fucked up it is. Yes, above is my current handwriting (I change them, it's my mood - get it?) and I feel... as solemn as ever about my family. I hope the shame fades away because I really do love my family.

3.
I don't like blogging about my purchases because I think the point of telling people your purchases is pointless. Say, you bought a skirt. Yeah. That's it. You bought a skirt. Point of the story? It's lovely and you bought a skirt. Well done.

4.
I like true bloggers. Bloggers who blog about how they feel about this and that. Not bloggers who blog about where they go, Orchard, Cineleisure, Heeren then we went to Chinatown for dimsum. After that met up with A and B, bumped into C and D and hung out with E. E says that bitch is so ugly but F still fucked her anyway like OMG. Oh yes ME SO HAPPY TO SEE G and bumped into H, I, J, K, L... That's all, BB, xoxo. Maybe if you touch your heart about a lot of issues, your blog would be much more interesting.

5.
I cannot stand bimbo blogs. But contradictingly, I read them to get myself pissed. But I don't do tagboard wars, so no worries.

6.
I'm going out with C soon. Which means I get to see him after so long. The anticipation - you know how it feels? It feels fucking awesome.

Goodnight.

She saw me...

Brought my lil baby Piggy out for a walk because I was outside my house and she was staring me through the door like a poor little bored doggy. The look in her eyes was... woah. So I decided to make her happy!

Overweight bitch.

And yes... it was really windy.

His new blog.

Please visit the homo's bestfriend's blog - yyihaoo.blogspot.com. I just decorated it for him and he'd better fucking blog. Anyhoos, link him babies!

Great losses in life.

http://www.latimes.com/news/obituaries

I was reading through the history of Bettie Page and came to know the cause of her death. It was heart attack on 2nd of December and she was on life support ever since then. She passed away recently. I am not sure when was the exact date of her death but it's sad... because she was 85. And it makes me think about my grandma living 4 years longer than her. Grandma. She was strong, a female warrior and she is still amazing to me. 89. Yes, 89... and then I am now, feeling sad over the loss of my grandma (again). I know, what a cycle.

Bettie at the brim of her career.

Bettie Page was a hot pinup legend, a photograph of her taken by an amateur camera was enough to make guys cum in their pants. I wonder if my grandma was hot when she was younger. Makes you think, no? I don't have photos of her when she was younger. I wish I had.

Wah lau, why am I thinking about this at 3.00 am in the morning?


I miss you, grandmother.

Adam is my Sandler.

I finished 'I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry' and it's aweeeeeesome! Adam Sandler will always be my sexual, physical and mind-fucking fantasy.


Seriously if he's gay, I'd cut my breasts off and attach a dick to my ***** so then maybe, he'd fall for me. I LOVE ADAM SANDLER!!! HAHA.

Wait a minute... there are new movies!

• Bride Wars (I wanna catch this!)
  
• Marley & Me (This too!)
  
• Seven Pounds (Maybe one day if I feel a little too serious about life I'd watch this. I usually don't pick movies like this but... I don't know. I feel that I gotta watch it, you know?)
  
• Bedtime Stories (OMG ADAM SANDLER! I watched it already!)
• Yes Man (Watched! AWESOME MOVIE.)

I hope C has the time for me to go on a date with me for a movie. :(

Conversations.

I was shitting in the toilet one fine day and C called.

C: "Hello, baby!"
E: "Oh hello! Erm I'm shitting in the toilet..."
C: "Oh!"
E: "Yeah... haha."
C: "I love you baby."
E: "Love you too."

:)

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Wendy: "Hey, you know Michael Kors?"
Estelle: "Is he like a designer or something?"
Wendy: "Yeah! He was on my flight omg I took a picture with him."

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Mum: "EH CAN YOU STOP WEARING BRA?!"
Estelle: "HUH?! ME? STOP WEARING BRA?"
Mum: "Need to use hands and wash leh!"
Estelle: "How can I not wear a damn bra?!"

Bring it on.

I just started a movie, 'Bring It On - In It To Win' and I figured that all the damn cheerleaders in the world are so happy-looking and... yeah, cheery. It's a pretty tough hobby, no? Sometimes you have to pretend to be happy and cheer when you know the last night your heart just got broken. Or... maybe something bad happens but when the performance starts you have to smile. Smile when you are sad. And cheer when you are about to cry.

Cheerleaders are so pretentious.

In a good way.